JAI RAM

Vaa vaa en dhevadaiyae.. AWESOME song..
I remeber how seet was the song to me..
Very special song.. Its just soo soothing to her at times..
I always have sittappa in mind ..
ABIYUM NAANNUM, a movie where i always have sitappa in mind when i watch it..
I love you Sittappa.. so much.. ,more and more each day!

Must go and book for the trial test soon.. I wanna somehow finish this by end this year.. PLS SWAMY!
Anyway, have aready finished my 108 ramajayam to be tied on vayuputran's neck.. Feel so blessed..
Cant wait to SEE JAI JAI RAM TMRW!!

YOU MEAN THE WORLD!

I know you love me so much..
Your smile means alot to me..
Sacrifices.. Not becos i want to.. I want to see that smile on your face..
Your happiness meanns alot to me.. always..
No matter how many years go.. I will still be wanting to see that smile on your face..

I dont sacrifice for everyone, becos you are very special to me..
I dun have words to tell you how much i love you..Its more and higher than the sky..
I love you loads loads loads loads!
Pls know that ok..

KISSES!

MY BIG BROTHER IS BACK!

Sometimes, i just get soooo jealous, when i see things..
But then i realize that, after all im just a another new person that came into your life..
Im just somebody, but not yours..


ANA IS BACK!
The two years wait is over..
My another half.. is here to complete me..
ANA, everytime, in this two years, i know i have missed alot of things from you..
Miss the long chats, our singing time, our little arguements, our fights, MOST OF ALL the LOVE, the BOND!
HAHA, and yes, a big warning to me.. YOU ARE BACK! no more being naughty.. haha

a VERY SPECIAL bond of brother sister..
I wanna stop that absense, distance that i had with you, i wanna bring back the strong relationship that i had with you..
I missed you loads aready.. I dun wanna miss you even more..
I hope things will be really great with us..
COS, you mean lots to me..
AAETA, thangachi loves you so much..
Looking forward ana to see you..
BIG BARNEY HUG!

HappyyFather's day!

AATHA is in hospital..
So sad to see her this way..
But hoping that, all will be fine.. She will be good..
With guru's blessing she will be ok..
GET WELL SOON AATHA!


Ana is back.. FINALLY!
YAY!

Happyyyfather's day to all fathers!
Fathers day will fully spent in hospital..
But ya, bought appa the bicycle..
Thanks to sittappa who helped me..
We ride back the bicycle home.. soo fun!
I loved it.. and  i love him!

This coming week, i have soo many things to be done..
SOO TIRED AREADY!
IM SLEEPYY!! SOOO PAINFUL MY HAND AND LEG!
AIYO!!

Love makes life beautiful:)

Love makes life beautiful:))

Another 3 more days for ana to be back:)
Monday need to go ICA again, dont have that very big confidence, but like wad sittappa said i just hope for the best!

Looking forward for weekends with family!

Kodi yugam Ponnal yenna, kadhaluku yepothum vayasagathu..
A person who could hold you tight all day long, just sit beside you to talk and talk and talk,
keep you so close to their heart, keep smiling all day long with me, treat me like his princess, never ever one day would want to see me tear, but just smiles all day long!
Magical isnt it?!

You make me shine!

Unnai videa intha ullagathil oosanthathu onnum illae..
This goes to my very special one in my life..


Tmrw, is His interview.. Praying very hard that all will fall in place!
I have that very strong confidence in me..
Swamy willl take care, i know!


Withyou beside me , i dont have tears dropping, only smiles on my face!
A very strong confident that no matter wad, you will be there for me!
You have shown me, and im gifted to have you in mu life!
You are mine, i will never give you up for anyone..
YOU MEAN THE WORLD TO ME!


I loveyou SITTAPPA


4 more days for ANA to be back!

Sittappa i love you

Im veryyy happpyy for you dearest!
Veryveryvery!!
Your happiness means alot to me sittappa..
Just praying very hard that all goes fine for you..
You dont worry, im here, beside you always!
I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH SITTAPPA!
You dont worry!

Seeing that big smile on your face for that particular moment was heaven to me..
After soo long i see that in your face..
Without realising my eyes had tears, because i can never see you upset..
You keep smiling sittappa.. I LOVE YOU OK!! KISSES..

Jumps

Im definetly grateful to you..
You never fail to make me smile.. With you there i do have that very big confidence in myself!
Mother's love, Father's care , friend's advice, best friend's LOVE! Everything i receive from you!

I can assure you something, NO MATTER WAD! I still love you many!!
I loved my day with you yesterday.. Really speechless when i heard you say many things..
I still cannot digest that you love me like sooo much..
What did i do that, i mean the world to you?
I can never give you your mum's love, but all that i can for you all the time!
Becos you mean the world to me tooo..
I will never never never leave you.. Dun worry, Im just beside you always!

I love you sittappa..
All will be fine real soon.. YOUR HAPPINESS IS MINE!! KISSES!




A few more days ANA is going to be back here for good!
I cannot believe that this two years have passed..
The excitement that i had when he use to come here for holidays is doubled now..
ANA YOU ARE COMING BACK!!
Thangachi loves you.. 10MOREDAYS!!



And im sooo in love with all those vairamuthu poems..
all thanks to sittappa, he made me fall in love..



உன்னைச் சுற்றி

ஒளிவட்டம் தோன்றும்...
உலகம் அர்த்தப்படும்...
ராத்திரியின் நீளம்
விளங்கும்....


உனக்கும்
கவிதை வரும்...
கையெழுத்து
அழகாகும்.....
தபால்காரன்
தெய்வமாவான்...

காதலித்துப் பார்!


This poem of his is one of the most famous ones..

KANNADASAN!

Was watching SUPER SINGER this week..
Hearing to all the kanadasan philosopical songs this week ..
Wow! Seriously, He is an awesome musician! AWESOME lyricst!
His poets are soo beautiful.. Makes me fall in love with those songs..
He makes his own experiences as poets! How beautiful..

My favourites of his will be the NILAVAE ENNIDAM NERINGATHEY!
When i feel soo down at this time, those songs are soothing to hear!
Gods gift he is..


amaithi illatha nerathile
antha aandavan enaiye padaiththu vittan
nimmathi izhanthe naan alainthen
intha nilaiyil unnai aen thoothu vittan

ippadi oru thalattu padava, athil appaiyae en kathaiyay korava?

Went over to the railway temple at kampong bahru just for a walk with sithi, sittappa, and thambi!
I wanted to come over to see thatha mainly! Just for that little peace in mind and soul!


Went jogging today again with sithi and sittappa.
FUN! Actually  that has been four years since i had a good run!
Secondary school was the last time i ran.. We always have soo much of fun running in our track..
Remember those times with gaya.. hahah.. we make ourselves a comedian!


But ya, running is refreshing.. AND especially running with sithi and sittappa is SOO MUCH FUN!


I know i have so many things in my mind..
Soo many.. I might smile, and be carefree, but my heart tells all..
I have my own thoughts here and there in my mind..
Deeply affected by those things happening around me..
but just keeping all one side, and giving a fake smile to the loved ones around me..
Its hard to aceept but all i can do is to keep all a side!
I know SWAMY is watching..


Life is so unpredictable.. I feel like giving up at times..
But i have my own aims to acheive!
You have been the moral support for me sittappa, and i will never forget that..

Just wanna go somewhere very far, sit down and be myself for a while..
Maybe that will cure my tensions!

Will go down to mariamman temple on of those days, i need to see HER!

I miss my galfrens!

DEPRESSED!

Unn nenjilae baram unakagavae naanum sumaithangiyai maruvaen!
When i heard you sing this, all that i could do is to tear more..
But at least it made me feel it na..
All that you said, i still remember..
Looking forward eagerly!


Yesterday night was like a nightmare..
I didnt close my eyes peacefully..
I know i made you so upset..
Saw all that pain in your eyes..
But why me? I didnt do anything..
I still remember, you pointed your finger at me, and that look of yours made me feel sooo scared..
I am just so down.. I need time to let me free..
Pls understand, i love you so much.. you mean lots to me..
I will never leave you..
Trust me.. I STILL LOVE YOU SO MUCH!




14 DAYS!

Do you really love me?
Or just pretending..
Why you always wanna badly see me tear?
You know, it hurts.. I have teared loads for you..

When you need me, you come..
When you dont, you make me upset, make me tear, make me sooo stressed! You throw me away, just because you dont need me.. You know, i feel soo lonely when you do that.. Im just stupid..
Sooo stupid!
I have told you sorry for all that have happen, I have even went to the extra mile of dropping my tears..
But you still go back to everything , make me feel it every twice a week..
I love you so much, i dun need to tell you how much i love you, because i know myself..
I dont know..It just hurts me so badly..

I give you everything, so much from me.. But you dont appreaciate me.. You always say i make you feel soo upset tensed stressed..

You have people to say.. i cannot tell this to anyone.. Im confusedd! BADLY UPSET!
SO PAINFUL!

LOST!

Sometimes in life, we do things that hurt others.
Someone we love or someone we care so much about.
But sometimes we just unknowingly destroy that moment of possible care and concern because of our pride.
Adding on to all their pains is all we do at that point of time.
Sometimes it almost feel like you can't differentiate what's right from wrong.
You can't coordinate your heart and mind.
Sometimes I can't stand the girl I am. The girl who cries and gets lost at every situation. The girl who can't seem to understand simple things.
The girl who can't seem to share your troubles.
The girl who always tries her best but get nothing right in return.
But thank you to you who is still willing to stay beside this girl despite all her flaws.
She is always asking whether you would ever leave her and the reason is not because she doesn't love you, She's just too afraid that you would give up on her one day so she rather ask and be the first to know.
Thankyou for walking with me when you had a million reasons to leave.

Hurts

Never will i forget today.. 3RD JUNE 2011!
From the time i woke up, i have been tearing..
Tears are precious, never lose them.. I lost them today just for you..
Never heard you and never have seen you behaving towards me like that..
I know its a mistake.. I know what i did.. Im sorry..
But i will never give you up for anyone.. Because, you mean the world to me..
I got scared you know.. It was totally different..
We had fights before, big arguements ,but not like this today..
But at the end of the day, i realise how much you love me ..
I know you were so badly hurt..
Seeing you just tear one drop hurts my heart..
I cannot bear to see you in this way..
Because, i have loved you, cared for you, and have hold you very tight in my heart..
Days go and our bond has been very tight.. You have been the one who brings smile to me everyday..
I dont fail to see you everyday..
You mean lots to me..
Your happiness is mine..
I dont do anything which makes you upset or hurt..
When i see you getting so worried for me, i had a smile in my heart that you love me so much..
I dun expect anything from anyone.. I always give what i have in whole..
But i appreaciate everything from you always..
Like wad i always tell you,i look forward for each with you..
Another few more days or so you are gonna leave me and go..
I am gonna have the hell of days with out seeing you everyday..
I have aready been soo used to spent everyday single day with you, now its all gonna be different..
How am i going to be with out you!? Im getting crazy thinking about this every night..
I might not tell you, but i know how much it hurts.. I am soo scared that i will lose you.. Its definetly not gonna be the same when you go over there.. I will miss you the most..
I dont know.. Everything i leave it up to swamy..


But deep down in my heart i can tell you very surely that, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!
Im sooo sorry for everything..

and remember, no matter how much you scold me, throw me away, i will stillhold your hand and walk.. i cannot lose you.. i dun know why..


Un nenjilae baram, unnakagavae naanu, sumaithangiyay thanguvaen..
Un kankalinn ooram yetharkagavo eeram kannerai naan matruvean..
I am here for you, to hold you very tightly, give you loads of love, make you feel warm and smile all day.. I will be the first person to be happy when i see that very sweet smile on your face always..
Remember, your happiness is mine!

Dont worry, all your worries will be ok soon. I told my swamy aready.. He knows the best for you..
Keep strong.. swamy saranam..
I LOVEYOU THE MOST SITAPPA!


ps* 17 days left!

RAJINIKANTH!

RAJINI UNCLE!!
We are all praying for your health to be good soon, real soon!


Dun worry sir, you will be your normal self and back into screens to rock RAANA!


Millions of people are praying for you sir..
You are god's gift to us.. Dun worry sir, You will be ok..
Guru is watching you..
I loveyou rajini uncle!

Heavy hearted

Sitappa is very upset.. Alot of things are happening around him..
Seeing him in this position hurts me soooo much..
I barely just tear when i see him like that..
Hearing him over the phone in his very upsetting tone hurts me..
I have nvr seen him like that..
Ya maybe two or three days he will be ok nor mally..
Now, he isnt..
Wad shall i do?! I dun know.. Very heavy hearted to see him like that..
Its making me crazy..

I love sitappa so much.. Yes we fight, argue, have the worst days together..
But he has been someone who made a impact on me..
Loads of love and a very tight bond has been there betwee us..
When i see him like that, i have no words..
Sitting beside him, and making him sleep is the only i could do..
Sitaappa, you dun worry..
Swamy knows everything.. i got pray for you.. You dun worry sitappa..
All will be fine ..
You be strong.. I am here.. loads of love!