So UNFAIR!

You made me like an idiot yesterday!
Heard you like after sooo long, what i get was nothing!

Who called?!! Me or YOU?!! you did call me, and then you made a fight there..
Do you know how much was i hurt?
Soo badly that tears had to be there even when im lying down..

I told swamy, I didnt know who to tell it to..
Was it wrong to even joke?
Now i have to have my limatations with you, to kno wad to talk wad not to talk to you!
You made me feel like an idiot.. There i was saying something and there u went with ur own Funny sounds!
You know, it was practically nonsensical.. I didnt know wad to say..

Shall i just give up? But my heart says NO!
You know i went through lots for you.. I could even say maybe a little sacrifice for you..
I know u love me.. Soo much.. But i love you like so much.. Gave you soo much that i could.. Always never fail to do so..
DUDU, i am sorry if any point of time, anything that i said made u feel upset or made you soo affectd..
You should know, i will never say anything badly and never wana make u feel bad too..
U mean lots to me.. But never will i give you up.. NEVER!! Never will i stop loving you tooo, NEVER!
I know where u put me, and you should know where i have you.. MISS YOU BADLY!

Swamy, You know right! I always tell you right.. Be with him and guide him swamy!

But I can’t tell if you want me to or you’re just saying it because you know I’ll walk away if you don’t. But the saddest part is I won’t walk away, I’d stay and pray for another day with you and another chance to make you mine. I just wish that it wasn’t killing me to wait, because if I could walk away I would. I would find someone but he will never be you. No one will be you.

Neengatha baram en nenjoduthan, Nan thedum sumaithangi neeyallava..

Sometimes, its sooo hard to please everybody.
No matter how much we do , we are always WRONG, maybe in this case its ME!!
Just feel soo LONELY, UPSET! Mixed emotions all over my mind..

I am AFFECTED! Thats all i can say!
It will take some time for me to realise that, im fine or maybe to just be MYSELF!

Happiness dun always last long, and whenever i feel sooo HAPPY, i have to tell myself that it will not be like this for LONG!
I have soo many things to do, to acheive, to let people know that i am also capable ..
But will everything that i want be accomplished?
CONFUSED!

Nowadays , i dunn feel like sharing, talking or even be myself to anyone..
I JUST FEEL LONELY!

"Nothing is permanent" i have heard it, but sometimes its true!
Like wad i always say to myself, NO MATTER WHO STAYS OR NOT, MY SWAMY IS THERE ALWAYS!! I can definetly say this.. I know he is watching me, guiding me, he knows wads best for me.
No matter how naughty, rude, irritating, cry baby, he still loves me..
HE WILL NEVER GIVE ME UP!
Swamy saranam..


PS: 65 days more.




கூவுகின்ற குயிலைக் கூட்டுக்குள் வைத்து பாடென்று சொன்னால் பாடாதம்மா..
சோலைமயில் தன்னை சிறைவைத்துப் பூட்டி ஆடென்று சொன்னால் ஆடாதம்மா..
நாள்தோறும் ரசிகன் பாராட்டும் கலைஞன் காவல்கள் எனக்கில்லையே..
சோகங்கள் எனாகும் நெஞ்சோடு இருக்கும் சிரிக்காத நாளில்லையே..
துக்கம் சிலனேரம் பொங்கிவரும்போதும் மக்கள் மனம்போலே பாடுவேன் கண்ணே..

என் சோகம் என்னோடுதான்... :((

Lost

Sometimes, i just feel like giving up..
Just think, i too need some love, care from you..
Always want those from you..
You nvr fail to give me those previously!
But now, everything seems diff!
You know, if im gonna tell you all this, u are definetly gonna say i dun understand u..
I am losing hope..
I feel very far from you.. I know u have many things to be done, to acheive, but, a simple msg will nvr take u long..U knw rite i always expect things.. when its u, a little more.
Its ok, i am used to this aready.. Like how u use to say.. Its my turn..

Must i give u soo much love, when i dun receive anything from you?
Must i give u care, when i am not bothered?
Must i sacrifice my time just to msg u or call you, when i dun get any attenntion from you?
Thinking, still thinking.. Im confused!

Everybody said , dun needd, wad u know abt this person. I insisted wad.. I wanted to have a healthy relationship with u.. But where is it now? TO THE DRAIN!!

I am losing my interest or rather, started to stop thinking abt u nowadays!
At times i forget about you..


Im just gonnna just go along, not gonna utter a word, Gonna be myslef, just me!
People come and go, i would put u there then..
Im gonna wait and see..

RANDOM thoughts

Sometimes, its so hard to please everyone..

April is going to end soon..
May is cominng..
May 7th is our eletions i guess..
Its like soo interesting actually..
My first time hearing about this and how much of other important things are involved in this..


I was in some random land where i thought about the times i had with ana..
Missinng him..
70 days!!

Sittaapa, I just love you so much ok..
Dun ever worry, or be afraid..
I will promise to be there always..
Always!!
Inbam endra pothum, Thunbam endra bothum, Endrum naam sontham marathu..
I loveyou muthu:))


Things are better now, I dun feel the pressure or tensions nowadays!
 Hope things go smoothly..
Hoping for more better things ahead.
AND SWAMY, sorry if i didnt sped time with u..
Coming back to uu.. I loveu swamy! SWAMY SARANAM!

Its VISHU!

HapppyyVishu to all My loved ones!


Its aready april 14th.. Very fast hor..
ANA, 77 more days!! I cannnot wait to have you back!

Somethings are better unsaid, i guess..
Just sooo stressed up!

Had a great day out with girlfriends at sentosa yesterday!
Loveyou both..

I am missing you loads! Soooo much!!
Looking forward to have a simple day with you! I loveyou..

Happpyybirthday APPA!!

HappppyyyBirthdayyy appalove!
Its ur 49th birthday pa.. Sooo old aready ah! hahah.. But you are always the handsomest one for me!
Just wanna tell you that, You mean loads loads to me..
Daddy's are always the first heros to their daughters.. You are my hero pa..
I hve got sooo many things to achieve and make you proud! I will never bring u down any time..
Just wait ok, I will be a police woman very soon! hahah..
Love you pa.. many more!
Hope u loved my gift::)))

Went over to sithi house for some renovation thing to do..
Ammm veryy tired!! Sooo much drained!
Its been like two days since i had a good sleep.. HAIZ!!

Im missing you loads! Sooo much!! But deep down i know that we share unconditioal love!!
Looking forward to spend that quality time with you.. Lovelove!!



85 MORE DAYS!! I miss ana!


Jananam maranam veandam, Intha thanimeiyin kodumei pothum..
Rannangal ennnnai kondral, Un ninaivae en swasam! :)))

Mixed emotions covered me..

Sometimes, i dont know the reason for heavy heart that i have ..
I jus felt so today.. No reasons, but Upset, angry, irritated, jealous, TENSED!

Jus trying to overcome it myself and move on..
Feel soo lonely, and my Music accompanies me!

Tamil mozhi varam is here in singapore! soo exciting..  we have lined up shows in VASANTHAM!!
And the best and most esciting one is SORKALAM!! the tamil debate!
I remmeber those times in secondary sch! We use to participate in those debates and soo proud to telecast it on tv. So fun! I miss it, the cheering, shouting, dancing, SCREAMING!!
Precious times!!
Nevertheless, im watching it on vasantham, till april 24th we have good shows!!

TAMILAI NESIPOM! TAMILIL PEASUVOM!


Missing my brother!
another 87 more days!!! Lovelove na..