Its about time for changes.

Another three more days for the new year. Not really lookin forward to it, but in a good note, its a new beginning and i wanna start off many new things this year too.
looking at resolutions for new years each year, is kinda boring!

Maybe i would say little goals i wanna achieve in the coming year..



1) finish off my DRIVING license
2) Start my new guitar lesson by feb
3) be more focused in school

And small things like,



- try to be a little calm when handling stuff
- have the courage
- dun be so sensitive



Thats about my little goals i wanna acheive.. And with HIS blessings im sure the new year is gonna be a great one for me. SWAMY SARANAM!



And its the last week of school holidays. haiz..
but ok, i dun need to rot at home anymore right.. Since ana is also here, after school im gonna see him aready.. atleast 10 mins will do with him.. so i can keep all this little things in mind to bring me along  until he comes back for good in another few more months..
i cannot still digest the fact that ana is with me here.. i love you na.








Hoping that all will fall in place with HIM beside me, I love u swamy like i always do.
 SWAMY SARANAM!

MY ANA IS BACK!

My ANA is back! That was such a BIGG surprise for me this december..
I was soo shocked to hear that ana was back..

Coudnt go for the prayers, so i coundt see him there..
But i went down just to see him after i heard he is back!
The moment i received his call, i got that smile in me unknowingly, my heart filled with joy when i heard him say SAYANG!

Ana, u made my day! Seeing you was something very special na.. i was waiting when i can see you!
Soo happy na. I coundt wait to reach to see you! hahah!
I loveyou na sooo much!
Looking forward to seeyou again!


UN PALINGU MUGATHAI PARTHUKONDAL PASIYUM VALIYUM THAERIYATHU!
I MISSED YOU LOADS NA..
ONLY I KNEW HOW I MUCH I TREASURED THAT HUG OF YOURS!
I WAS WAITING FOR THE PAST 8 MONTHS! I LOVE YOU ANA! LIKE HOW THE MOON LOVES THE STAR! UMMMA!

Makes me fall in love

Neela Vaanam Neeyum Naanum

Kangalae Bashayaai Kaigalae Aasiayaai
Vaiyamae Koilyilaai Vaanamae Vaayilaai
Paalveli Paayilae Chaayunthu Naam Kooduvoam


Ethotho Desangalai Saerkkindra Nesam Thannai

Nee Paathi Naan Paathiyaay Korkkindra Pasam Thannai
Kaathal Endru Paeyar Suttiyae Kaalam Thantha Sontham Ithu
Ennai Polae Pen Kuzhanthai Unnai Pol Oru Aan Kuzhanthai
Naam Vazhntha Vazhvirku Sandravathu Innoru Uyir Thaannadi



This seriously melts me.. Such a superb song.. Kamal sir sang it himself.. Very touching.. And those lines seriously makes me fall in love! Such a sweet number to hear..


ANA, I LOVE YOU! And i got reminded of you na when i heard this..

Neela vannam.. Neeyum naanum..
I miss u my big brother! trying to listen and sing na, so i can sing this to u! hahah
I miss u like big time and yes, i too cannnot wait to see you na.. Ummaaaa..

Updates

December is here and looking forward for the new year with alot of new aims and dreams!


Just some updates about myself,


School holidays are here, and ya its gonna be kinda boring but ya i will manage!
One more week for dudu to see swamy! Excited for him!


Went praveena house yest for open house! We had fun talking , i mean crapping!
Photos are in facebook!

Not forgetting


HAPPPPYYBIRRTHDAYY RAJINI UNCLE!!!
You rock as always and i pray to god that all will sucess for you..
Keep staying healthy, smart, stylish, and the SUPERSTAR!!
i loveyou UNCLE!!


you've always found a way to cheer me up even when im as down as can be. you replace my tears with laughs and smiles and never fail to be there. you've been that bestfriend who's just always there for me. you have no idea what that means to me and i promise i'd be that someone who understands you abit more than yourself. i'll smile when you smile and feel all the pain you do, and if you cry a single tear you know i'd cry to (:

I missyou and the simple things we had together..
Happiness that i had everyday was nothing compared to anythin..
Looking forward just u said, im also looking forward..
U are very special and i dun have a word to describe how special u are..
That little message from you made me soo good after soo long. U complete me!
I thankyou for that little happiness u give me without fail..

I miss ana, so much!
he never call me lor.. so busy somebody! i have to call and ask.. haiz..
Wait till he come back, im gonna punish him by making him listen to my guitar piece!
anyway, i learnt a song just for him.. looking forward to let him hear.. and that goes only to him
aaeta, thangachi loves you so much. flying kiss! catch it na.


podi podinnu naan thoratha vambula neethaana maativitte
nalla irundha en manasa naaraga thiruchuputta
karupaa irundha en irava coloura maathiputta
enudan nadantha en nizhala thaniya nadakka vitta
uLLa irundha en usura veLiya midhakka vitta

Simple thoughts

I miss going to the movies. I miss the mrt rides. I miss the late night long long chats. I miss the sudden kisses.
I miss the soft hugs.
 A one-time thing which has been lingering on my mind always.
I miss the STARBUCKS sessions.


I miss talking late into the nights. I miss the giggly conversations and the ones where i was seriously speechless!
I miss  being  with you without the stress and the weariness. I miss going out freely without having to run errands or succumb to obligations. I miss doing things on impulse and not scheduled.


I miss the simple things.
I miss the rush of joy it brought me.
I miss the natural blush it gave me.
I am looking forward to having a special day with you and I hope it comes soon. . .


Am i asking for more?Or its me expecting!
Dun knw why but i know you are willing to give me even more than i ask..
Missyou soo much<3

Its sweet:)

Indha kadhalai naan adaiya yethanai kamam kadanthu  vanthean..
Indha mounathai naan unnara yethanai varthaigal kadanthu vanthean..

Mugavari kaetean naan thanane, mutham thanthai nee thanae!
oonjal kaetean naan thanaey, noolgal thanthai neethanae..

TERRIBLY UPSET!

I wanna badly confront you but i dun wanna do that too..

U jolly well look after urself before you go and talk about anyone else..
Do you even relise that you are being a very big KAPO, for talking about pthers and spying them..
Do you know that its very rude.. Bloody hell, U have the biggest mouth!, Trust me, thats it for me and you!
I was just an stupid listening, and being there for u all times..

Rememeber stop being a idiot, and a busy body, see yourself in the mirror and then comment about ppl around you! U will answer for all this! SERIOSULY U WILL ANSWER FOR THIS!


and thankyou sooo much for atlest letting me know wad kinda person are you..
Thats it, seriously thats it.. Im gonna wake my mind up and be strong..

Im just being soo bothered by all this kinda things, this just make me feel sooo upset..
But i dun wanna stay like that for long.. I just need some time..

I guess all will be fine after i spend some good time with swamy!
the whole of last week coudnt do anything for him, Now back to him..
swamy i need you!

LOST

Sometimes it makes me thing that , relationships in any way that we have is just full oF rubbish!
 PASAM, NEASAM, BANTHAM! Everything seems so fake to me at times..
Soo bothered , irritated..

You know i realise the most biggest mistake that i do is to keep everyone i knw sooo close to my heart, at the end of the day i have to be the one who gets affected and cry all about..

Sometimes it makes me tell that i dun want anybody except swamy!
He is the only one gonna be there for me at all times right.. Listen to me whine, cry, laugh, talk!
And answer my prayers! And feeling him at times is the biggest gift!


Feel sooo upset, i wanna just cry out but i dun have anyone to do it with me now!
Im lost, just looking forward for tmrw to spend good time with praveena and gaya!
I need some time and peace to let myself know im feelin better..

For now, Playing my guitar and just listening to songs make me feel better..

ANA!! Can u come here! I want u! I just feell soo lonelyy na! Hiaz.. I miss you na

ANA

I was seriously down and cofused yesterday..
When i hear ana said "MA" everything went down.
You know its seriosly very hard to miss the one you loved like no other , Kept very closed, Thinking of the person each second, And the person is everything to you!
Thats seriosly very hard very very hard to do..
I miss you like hell loads na.. Even if i wanna lay on ur shoulder , hug u tight and cry i have to tell myself u are not here with me.. But simply when i hear you everything i feel is gone na.
Thats how much i love u and the impact that i have..
U are my treasure and mine ana.. I cannot wait to hug u and cry aloud and tell u how much i missed you again na..
Faster come home na.. Waiting and counting my days aready! ANA IS COMING BACK!!

Uravin Perumai Pirivil Arindhu Uyiril Paadhi Kuraindhen..
Thangachi loveyous and loves you the most! FLYING KISS ALL THE WAY FROM HERE!



PS*I seriosuly miss you, Just realised it yesterday! Its been days since i felt it but today i wanna tell you that i seriously miss you! Looking forward..


SWAMY SARANAM!